Train ride......

Part of me will be very glad to see June come. Being a creature of pure habit does not go well with up rooting everything you know and moving four states away. There are two characters I seem to play these days. The first, Excited! This generally comes when I am not bombarded with a million other things not pertaining to moving. It's fun to think about the endless possibilities that God offers us everyday. I am excited to go out and do something different. To step out of my box that's safe and warm. I am sure that there are people who doubt my decision, based on the fact it's not something I would have normally done. Of course, I will miss my family, but I am happy to be going. And believe it or not, it was actually my decision to move. Doug had written off the idea of ever living somewhere different years ago.

Then there is the second character. Chaos! It is a mixture of stress, worry, confusion, ect. There are so many things that need to go right at the same time that it almost seems impossible. Hence the "Chaos" in my head. I am hoping that some of this will disappear after our trip to Pa next week. At least then I will be able to see the potential places that we will be living. And I am excited about my train ride up to meet Doug after his next interview.

I have spent more time talking to God in the past three weeks, than I have in a long time. I keep looking for answer and I figure that's a pretty good place to start. One thing that had been bothering me was having to be left behind for a month after Doug went up to start working. I had made an agreement with my boss that I would stay and cover the office while her and the other managers went to a conference in Florida. It was a quick decision that I made based on the fact that I need a job until I don't and I can't afford to lose mine before I am ready to move. So I agreed to stay behind until July. Once I had time to think it over, that made a mess of everything, but I had given my word and won't break it. Fortunately, the other day, my boss pulled me aside to let me know she had thought over our agreement and feels that it would be better on me to go with Doug when he leaves and not stay behind. This came after he had been gone for two weeks and apparently I was behaving like my normal self. I was being short with people, opps! All I could think during this conversation is how it seemed like she had been listening to all my prayers. I finally had an answer that made sense. One that has released a lot of stress off of this whole situation.