I have hit the "trifecta" of starting over; new location, new job, and new relationships. Obviously, to anyone who knows me, the location is our move to PA. We have been here for about three months now and I can't say it feels anymore like home than it did on day 7. I thought that getting back in to a normal way of life would make it feel more like me, more like home. I don't know if it will ever feel like home but at some point it has to feel "normal", right? Part of my normal life would be the fact that we get up and go to work everyday. Some work from home and some of us drive to a location, but we work. It's the normal, constant, in life. I made the statement one day, " I don't think I will ever feel settled until I get a job."
I have been at the school district for two weeks, and I have to say that I am loving my job. There is a lot of independence, which is something that I love, no employees to deal with. No phone calls on Monday morning at 6am with someone telling me that they are not coming to work, or their child is sick. And when that person calls in, there is no me having to do their job as well as mine. No pettiness between employees that I have to squish. It is quite refreshing! I also happen to love my boss. We have a lot of the same views of life. For one, life is too short to take it too serious. This always makes it easy to work with someone when they are not consumed in making everything overly serious and never able to enjoy the beauty of life. Sometimes you just have to stop and smell the roses and watch the rainbow light up the sky after a storm. If you stress over everything that is thrown at you, you will never enjoy the full joy of the big picture. Now, I know that it has only been two weeks, but it still has that lost feeling. You know the feeling that you have no idea what's really going on. The time when everything seems to be perfect and you can't or haven't seen the cracks in the walls yet. That's where I am. I know that at some point this will feel more natural, the light will start to shine through the cracks and true personalities will shine. The good thing is, this is supposidly our busy/stressful time and if that's the case then I can handle this. Comparitively to what I have dealt with in the past this is a piece of cake if this is the busy season.
I have meet a lot people at work, but there is that longing for my friends. It's funny, since moving away from everyone I have ever known, I now look at people as potiental friends when I meet them. It's kind of funny I suppose, kind of like going on a date, the whole time you are trying to see if there is long term potiental there or not. I miss my friends, especially in times such as needing a shopping buddy, or wanting to go see a chick flick. And I find making new friends a trying and awkard situation sometimes. I don't know why it's weird for me, I guess some people are just better at it. At least Doug agress with me that it is a weird thing sometimes. I mean other than work, where do you meet people? Or atleast people that you will become friends with, since you can meet just "people" on the street corner. Then there is the factor that everyone, seriously everyone, I know here has kids. I mean I kind of feel like maybe we should start a family and join the crowd you know.......
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